|Butt stuff is always funny|
My head is playing Dropkick Murphy's.
Being in my head so much of the time is one of the most challenging things about being me. I can sit there in front of you, listening to you, genuinely caring, and having a conversation with my friend's new boyfriend whom I have not met in my head.
It used to be the safest place in the world, my head.
Then I wrote the things in my head down onto a piece of paper and was sent to a child shrink. I went once. Then I decided, fuck it, I just won't write it down anymore.
But that's never been a real option for me. I write things down that play out in my head all the time. I just rarely share those things. Not because I am afraid of being judged - I sometimes write really good shit. I rarely share those things because I rarely finish those things.
If the things I ever write bother people, I am more than okay with that. One of my favorite things I've ever taken from my head to a keyboard made a lot of people uneasy. I like that. A lot.
There is no real point to any of this. I'm tired and still a little sick.
And now I have to go fish for sharks.