Monday, March 9, 2015

I like the word mothafucka

There but for the grace of God go I.

This past year I watched two people I love lose the person they love. I woke up this morning and looked over and thought, never take this for granted. 

Then I thought about the first sentence in this post. A lot of people have quoted it to me in my lifetime, many of them thinking they're quoting scripture. They're not. That is nowhere in the Bible.

Whats-more, it's an absolutely asshole sentiment. It's a sanctimonious, better you than me, mothafucka! At best, it's a way of saying, god likes me enough not to put me through the shit he's putting you through. Either way, you're the asshole, or God's the asshole, but there is no getting around it being an asshole statement.

This is the shit I was thinking about as I looked over at my wife.

And that I hope, if we can't leave this world together, she goes first. And not for many, many more decades. And not just because of the massive life insurance policy she doesn't know about. No, I want her to go first because I just don't want her to have to hurt the way too many people already have this past year.

Let that be me.